Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Note to Self

Tomorrow I will be finding out my site - the place I will be working and living for the next two years!  This is exciting and scary and a million other things!  Because there is about to be a big change in my life, I've been thinking a lot about the future and about my expectations for my service.  So, I took time tonight to write a letter to my future self.  I will be a few days shy of my 24th birthday when I COS (Close of Service); this letter is for the Kelley of 2015.


Dear COS-ing Self,

I hope you have enjoyed the past two years and taken advantage of as many opportunities as possible.  I hope you have created big adventures you’ll talk about for years and small memories that you will think of fondly in the quieter moments of life.  I’ve started to think a lot about the person I want to be two years from now and have decided to record some thoughts.  If it changes, that’s okay; it’s life.  Still, I think it is important to remember how I feel in this moment.

First of all, I hope you’re a softer person.  I am always concerned with justice and fairness, but sometimes I forget to look at the person next to me, smile, and strike up a conversation.  Everybody needs kindness, and while it would be nice to influence that on a policy scale, it’s just as important to provide it to the people you see everyday.  (Well, actually, it’s probably more important.)

I hope you picked up some sort of a local skill – whether it be dancing, or weaving, or something in between.  I am both a learner and a teacher here and learning a new skill would be a constant reminder of that.

Speaking of learning, I hope you have used these past two years to become truly bilingual.  There’s something so beautiful about speaking to a person in their own language.  It seems like the greatest way to say that your ideas and needs are so worthwhile to me, that I learned your language to better understand them.

I hope I’m still blogging.  I really believe that my decision to join the Peace Corps was not one that I made solo and that is motivation enough to keep sharing.  My parents were cool enough to smile and say “I think it’s great that you want to spend two year in a country plagued by natural disasters, drug cartels, and political unrest.”  My friends were great enough to assure me that they’d put up with my whining about latrines and would still be around when I returned.  The amount of support I have received amazes me and one of the ways I can thank all of these wonderful people is to share my experiences with them.

I hope you’ve read a lot of books in your free time.

I hope you’ve made friends that are going to be your friends for a long time, whether they are other Peace Corps Volunteers or Guatemalans.

Lastly, I hope you’ve thought about what you want to do next.  And I hope that it’s something that you really want to do, not something that someone told you you’d be good at or something that you think is the right thing.  I hope that two years of roughing it in Guatemala has given you the courage to examine your talents and figure out how best to contribute to the world in a way that makes you very, very happy.

Love,
The Kelley of April 10, 2013

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